Life is Hard.
Forgive me for thinking college is easy and for thinking I would have time to keep my blog updated.
It’s getting to a point where stress is taking over.
I keep saying to myself ‘ Work Hard. Dream Big’, but I don’t know if I can to it. Or if I’ll live my dream life in 10 years time, and that scares me.
Isn’t it scary to think what you do when you’re only 16 affects what you’re going to be doing when you’re 60?
“Think positive” “You can do it” “just work hard” she types as she whispers it to herself!
You may or may not have noticed that I have not been active on my blog for a very long time. So I just wanted to let you know what’s been happening.
I know that I aim to make this a photography based blog and I wanted to post as much as I possibly can. However when I had started this blog it was close to my last year in high school. So unfortunately it was getting really close to my exams therefore I wasn’t able to post as much as I had hoped to. So even though I don’t have much of an audience I wanted to say sorry for not posting a lot.
Now…recently I’ve been very stressed and depressed. I have almost finished my exams but I have one more left. The stress was mainly because of my exams however because I want to be honest with you guys, I have to say that I lost someone very close to me recently. Personally I don’t want to say a lot about it because it has only been a week since that special person passed away. That special person is my granddad who was very close to me and whom I loved so much and will continue to love. He is the most kind-hearted person I know and I have indescribable love for him. So as to say I have been going through a lot. I lived with him for 10 years and for the past 6 years I had to move away from my home country.
So in about two weeks time, after my exams, me and a few of my family members are going back to my home country, to see my grandmother, who is also upset as she has lost her beloved husband. It is the first time I am going to go back home since I left 6 years ago. We did meet up with my grandparents 3 years ago, but not in my home country, where I loved and cherished every minute I spent with them . Although I’ve always been excited to return to my home country, where I am going to see my grandmother and my cousins and family, I have to say that a part of me doesn’t want to go back to see that my granddad is no longer there. I’m already probably boring you with this long story therefore I’m not going to go into more detail.
Hopefully next time I post it will be either from my home country, which I will reveal soon, or it could be from the country I live in now, which may be because I might not get Wi-Fi there! Even though I will be spending most of my time with my grandmother, I will try and take a few photographs for this blog.
I am sorry if this long story or this post was not what you were expecting. I hope to post more of my normal things soon. Also since I’m going to have a long summer and soon will be in college, I’m going to try my best to keep this blog updated.
Please leave your thoughts and comments if you can. It would really make me feel better to know that my posts are being read by someone.
Thank you ever so much, love -h